This year was hopefully going to be so much better than the last two, but it has already gone tits up.
1. I failed my OSCEs for my Physical Assessment and History Taking course. I failed by a measly 6 marks. I was so gutted. I really don't want to resit it, but I haven't any choice as they wont give me any proof of attending until I pass!
2. The reason for this blog....
I have been getting upper back/scapula pain for the past three weeks and I am terrified that the cancer's back.
I saw an Oncologist yesterday and now I have to wait for a bone scan. She said it doesn't sound like boney mets, but because of my history and it only being two years since dx I should get it checked out.
I had a total meltdown at work on Thursday. I spoke to the Breast care nurse first thing and told her everything, the next thing I knew she had an appt for me for the following day. I know I should have felt pleased to see someone so quickly, but instead I was worried that the reason my appt was so soon was that they had concerns.
Now I am feeling slightly relieved that the Dr wasn't too concerned and that my symptoms didn't match usual pains related to cancer, but the appt seemed to be rushed and I didn't feel she looked at me thoroughly enough or even spent time asking me anything...
But how long do I leave it? Do I refer myself to a physio or go for a tough massage....? Could I make it worse? All these questions.... And no one to answer them.
